Today I got in an arguement with my brother and mum. I went upstairs sobbing, i took my belt and hung it on a beam on my ceiling. I stood on my bed, leaned over, put my head in the loop and took one foot off the bed. I wanted to take my second foot off so badly, but I couldn't get myself to do it. I feel like I should be dead. But I don't want to kill myself, I just want to die, I feel like it wouldnt be as hard on people. I just feel so sad all the time..
I read this a couple days ago and never posted it. But i understand, i’ve had my share plus more of intense sadness. The urge to end it all is great and i almost feel selfish telling you to not do it, because i’ve thought about it. But try to just cheer yourself up. Do something you enjoy. Try writing down something expressing what you’re thinking/feeling. Listen to some sad ass music (it seems counter productive, but it helps you in that you realize someone else is feelin the same thing). Realize that everything will get better in time (hopefully) and its just a little phase.